feeling * * * ---N
i though today wake up ..i will feel better...so i decided to when out for a walk..to east coast at the beach..maybe i just need a silent to think of all the things i did..it was relaxing calming .
i see the sadnest and the happiness and i glad i make it tru so far with him.
What ruin me the whole day is , i saw some one familar...and the next thing is ...i approach him and ask are u santino..HE replies me /..''No santino is my brother'' i m SEAN....his twin brother..
this is the second time ..and i think god is playing around or i shall say he is punishing me for what i did.
i cannot do anything...but to go home after that look at the four wall, and lay down..staring ..
and was trying not to think..
after that , i dont feel like going out..i m so afraid to see things that will remind me about him.\
Novi, came back with his bf...and again why at this kind of time ..her bf have to stay wit her..when i m feeling lonely. T T ...
Darling always ask me to move on, and dont think so much..i wonder do he cares about this anymore?i know it is not fair for him, But T T ..is he slowly forgetting me and wantin someone new to be in his life.
i know i cant be selfish..T T , if that day comes ..i m just goin to hide..and accept the fact that i m no longer in his heart.
BUT i dont want this to happen...T T ..i know whoever read this will hate me..thinking i m too much.
i m so worried...and i cannot stop tearing...T T
i misses him so much now..i couldnt see him, nor listen to his voice much..this is so suffering.
i wish i could hug him now..i wish.
ps: i dont want to move on alone, i will move on together with you.
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i have nth much to say, dunno where to start and hw to say. im nt good in expressing my feelings. as always. but i really hope you are doing fine and he will forgive you :/
ReplyDeletejust wanna let you know, no matter what happen we will be there for you. girl, stay strong.
loves.